but I do have a very long list of reason, some good, some not so good.
December for me, well it just sucks. I will never look at that damn month the same. Ever since my father passed away 2 December's ago, it's just been hard. I try my hardest to keep face in front of the kids, I put on the whole holiday house decorating, baking up a storm, Christmas mumbo jumbo, but behind all of that, I'm just sad. The first Christmas was just plain wrong. on so many levels. Even months leading up to December I would get panic attacks just getting scared that "the month" was coming. It doesn't help either that his birthday is also the 8th of December... I spent most of the month totally in tears when I wasn't in front of the kids. Maybe this year wasn't quite as bad in terms of the dark cirles and crying puffiness around the eyes, but it was still a bitter sweet month nonetheless. just. plain. wrong.
So that was my "good excuse" for not being apart of the world, taking care of my business etc. Which actually brings me to another reason why I suck. I thought it would be a great idea to take a few weeks on in December. yeah, not a good idea. My intentional 2 weeks has now turned in 5 weeks and still counting. It's so freaking hard to jump back in and get work done when all I wanna do is play with my Christmas gifts and not think about anything, just "live". Although, I will say that in the midst of not doing digital scrapbooking products for the store, I did work up the energy and balls to throw myself into starting my photography website/business, something I have always wanted to pursue... site is done except for loading images in. Just gotta get some guinea pigs to help me with that. Did my business cards and even did a Valentine's promo postcard for my LSS.
Not sure where this venture will lead, if anywhere, but I'm invested in giving it a good hardy go. And having a REALLY good time with practice shoots and editing... I could stay in Lightroom all day!
Facebook doesn't help a damn bit either. I swear my sister got me to join, next thing I knew, I'm meeting up with people from highschool, updating my status on my phone while at Starbuck's, catching up with people from Elementary School I haven't seen in half my lifetime, organizing albums... of course its a neat site, but its freaking addicitive, like totally addictive. Not a good idea if you have crap to do.
ok what else. lemme just list the rest:
So much more to share but I know if I spent more time listing everything, this post will never be published and will sit here feeling lonely! I have a TON of pictures to share but that will have to wait! I guess all in all, I didnt spend the past 5 weeks doing "nothing", just not doing as much digi! My mind is always full of plans, always full of dreams... I'm off to the San Diego children's museum for today! I will be back to post all my baked stuff and photo shoot images I have been working on though! I VOW it!!! HUGS xoxo
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